Back!

Hello folks! Surprised to see me back in blogger? Or surprised that you can no longer access the iWeb page i had? Well, here's the news, i had it discontinued. For the past 2 months i have been using the free trial to see how well it looked to have a webpage put up using this thing in Mac called iWeb. Turned out that it was fantabulous (i thought, at least).

Then they said the subscription fee is S$138. Nice, but not that nice when the figures come in those sizes...

So here i am again! I'll be heading back home in a few days time. One full week off to chill out and spend time with family, but i think some of the books are coming with me, cause, tests are in a month's time!

Wasn't really a long day i had today. 2 hours of lectures, and the routine 2 hours of dating with the cadavers - 10 of them each time, and arms severed from the shoulder down - another 10 of them... I have seen these dates of mine in their better days - when we first started, the muscle fibres were still quite intact, and the neurovascular bundle was nice. After 3 sessions they seem to be falling apart in tiny pieces, just like dust.

...the way to dusty death...

Ring any bells?

I'm getting more and more used to life here. Well it really has been 7 weeks! I'd have to be! But then the learning experience is still exciting day by day. Everyday, new information is disseminated. "It's up to us to turn that into knowledge" one of my Profs said.

So. That's about all that i have to update. Ciao!

Announcement!

Folks!

I'm trying out something new :)

I've set up a new webpage with a blog and other little stuffs in it.

Go here to have a look -

Strike A Balance

It may take some time to load, so please be patient?

Navigate the site by clicking on the tabs at the top of the page :)

And do leave some comments to tell me what you think.

Ciao!

I get really, really cranky

when the temperature outside hits 50 celcius.

I'm exaggerating, obviously. But still.

I get even crankier when its already hot and i have to get to immigrations to get extend my international passport validity.

The sense of dread just overwhelms you when you know that you have to head to that forsaken place to face those people who are not willing to work for you at the slightest bit. I have to say, that i carry my package of prejudices and when i filed into the office. Maybe it's written all over my face, cause i hate them so much, yet i think my stereotyping was just down-right accurate.

When i asked for the form to fill in, the lady at the counter spoke to me as if her father just died. Or the whole family. Whatever. Then i sat down to write, with a pen that had its ink all dried up. So i ask for another one.

She started to ramble. About how many pens she'd lost, about how she only had one, ONE freakin' pen before she unwillingly handed my another from counter next to her.

Then out of no where, she lit up, smiled and spoke like an infant who just had candy. Then i realized, she was answering a lady queuing behind me. But why the sudden change of composure? I looked and, Oh. Right. It's the skin colour thing. Like when you're not as dark, you get yelled at, or get nonsensical ramblings that i practically don't give a damn about, thrown at your face.

And at the cashier? I sat down and the guy looked at me with his contempt - the way you look at the guy who went adulterous with your wife. When i got the receipt, against my rational mind i politely asked to clear some doubts.

'Saya apply untuk passport 64 mukasurat, kenapa sini tertulis hanya 32?'

'YEALAH! BETULLAH TU! 32 LAH! SEKARANG HANYA ADA 32 MUKASURAT BA!'

Then he rolled his eye.

Why do you leave the '64 pages' option on the form when you no longer offer it?

The 50 celcius, the immigration office and now this? I swear it took me more than 5 seconds to breathe before i was about to talk myself out of screaming at the guy's face.

First Do No Harm. I'll be living by that principle for the rest of my life. Might as well start practising.

Just.

Sorry for being away for so long
Some times i just need to be off cyberspace for a while
But i'm back
And i'll stay for a while
:)

I had a thought
Do you believe in soul mates?
As in do you believe they exist?

When i was small
I mean really small like primary 2 small
I thought that marriages are just people fussing over a huge dress-up party
A group of guys will storm the girl's place
To snatch the wife-to-be
Looked fun in fact.
That's one picture

Another one was people all sitting in the chapel
the couple standing in front of the altar
and the old guy in the robe will say something
and the couple will say their vows
they exchange rings
they kiss on the lips
(for show or what?)
and they're supposed to live happily ever after
how about that?

If relationships were that easy to keep
some countries won't be recording 50-60% divorce rates
the rings won't be necessary to remind you that you're married
and that you're not supposed to cheat
there wouldn't need to be vows
to swear stuffs that sound like life sentences
mortifying

Why did we create marriages?
Was it supposed to be sacred?

Maybe, just perhaps,
in the beginning of it all,
the wedding dress and the vows and the rings,
people are hopeful
that things will be cemented from that day onwards
and stay that way
which is why fairy tales always end with 'Happily Ever Afters'
it'd be cruel to tell what comes after that to innocent kids
do you always marry your soul mate?

What happens when you realize that the one you exchanged your vows with
was not actually the one?
Would you think that it's a mistake you make?

People change all the way in the course of their lives.
Thoughts change
Feelings change
So maybe this thing they cherish so much
Love, they call it
changes too some day.
Who knows?

Sometimes
it just freaks me out.

[Photos from deviantart.com]

Earl Grey. Meredith Grey. Henry Gray.

What's common in those three? Their last words certainly rhyme. One's a tea; the other two are persons - one fiction and one dead. But they do have one thing in common - ME. These three sum up what i do with my life these days, and i'm enjoying every bit of it.

I think i do.

Earl grey became the love of my life (still is until someone else pops in) since last year when i discovered how its scent can keep me on my toes, while craving for more of it. I can't remember when i first started to like tea. Maybe it makes me look, well just look, composed. It goes well with milk, goes better with lemon, but it's the best on its own.

Meredith? She's the lead in Grey's Anatomy, the series that made me (well, still making me) stick my eyeballs my PC monitor half of my days riding the emotional roller-coaster with the storyline that's down-to-earthly realistic and at the same time full of the fictional juices that you want from, well, fiction. I fantasize about myself being a real doctor one day and being able to work the hell out of myself while still being able to tackle life's interesting turns like in the series. Hahah you'd probably think 'naive' but hey, can't a guy just hope for a colourful life even though stereotypically we all think that doctors who work in hospitals don't have a life?

Maybe they really don't. Ohhh. That's no revelation to me ;)

And Gray? Med students would have heard of Gray's Anatomy of the Human Body i'm pretty sure. I've been going through the basics so that the rusty gears in my head would be able to turn when the time comes for it to run madly fast. God i hope my fellow peers won't choke me to death with their brains - they do come from Raffles and Hua Chong, you know ;)

Well. I'm counting the days for now. It's coming. I'm waiting : )

Post No. 150 - Another Milestone Reached

The night has been pleasant, save for the badly polluted air around the residential area, and the overly warm Saturday night. Coming back from a dinner session with some of the most important people of my life left me at a contemplative state, on how i am to steer the years ahead of me, and on what's important in life. The decision i am about to make in the coming week will either work against or for my career, and will more or less determine the course of my life - where i would settle down after Med School, what kind of a person i will ultimately turn out to be etc etc...

NUS. HKU. Their perks are so tempting, i find it a paramount task to wave off either one of the universities that has been kind enough to offer me a place to materialize my dreams. A 6-year bond entails graduation from NUS, and the living costs in HK is not easy to bear. Its not easy to be accepted in either of the unis, and for that i am truly grateful.

And so i said the dinner i had has left me in a state of contemplation. And so i was thinking - the 2 years in Singapore had brewed the adventurous persona in me, so much so that i seem to continually thirst for the opportunity to experience new cultures and lifestyles. In other words, staying in Singapore for the next 11 years is not exactly the most appealing thing to me. Then again, i have more than doubled my knowledge in so many aspects just by staying there for 2 years. The thought of being able to live in HK for 5 years and experience the moderate procession of the different seasons, however, IS very much appealing.

I ought to be more than well-aware that stuffs never come to you in a perfect bundle, with the most desirable permutation of choice available for you to pick. Some things will just have to go. This dilemma won't be easily resolved, yet i certainly don't wish that it would be, for the fact that it concerns the course of my life for the next decade, which may ascertain what i will do for the rest of my life.

Tell me please that i'm not thinking too much. Maybe i really should just flip a coin ;)

You can never have two bites at once when you only have a mouth.

Which way?

Guess its about time i updated. Nothing much has been happening, really. I get to wake up late every morning, i could. But I’m up and fresh by 6.05am every weekday to send the girl to school. I’ll play some piano pieces and then get some breakfast. Then i’d get on CNN, BBC, AlJazeera and see what was blown up the day before. Grey’s Anatomy would follow, well either that or my newfound digital medical textbook – Gray’s Anatomy for Students – where i’d spend hours reading and trying to remember the hundred plus names of bones, structures, muscles, nerves, and yeada yeada yeada…

NUS, when do you plan to reply me? I don’t need more anxiety than i already have. Please don’t make it more difficult than it already is. (Gosh i always wanted to use that phrase, sounds so bloody pathetic on the side of the one who mentions it.) When are you gonna give me an answer? Yes or no? I’d be fine with either.

Or would I?

Well whatever. Just tell me soon would ya? So many others have received their answers. What, you think i’d bite if the news is an upsetting one? I have no idea which one is feels more upsetting, waiting for it or being rejected.

Ok i’m starting to lose my sense here. Better stop before i ramble too much.